ASPECTS
a monthly devotional journal
by David S. Lampel
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Issue #117 August 2000
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THE VEIL
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The wrap of darkness was of my own choosing. I had too much to
lose--and, as I thought, too little to gain--from this dangerous
investigation. Were I to be found out, my reputation, my political
standing--my office in the temple would not just be risked, but surely
lost. The object of my search, this rogue teacher, was becoming an
unbearable nuisance to the Sanhedrin. Other considerations were being
set aside as overheated arguments about the man predominated our Council
meetings. No longer just an irritating mosquito droning about our ears,
the result of this man's teaching had become a squawking bird of prey,
noisily flapping and beating its wings, driving us all mad with its
pecking beak.
Others in the Council were content to know him no further than by
reputation, but that wasn't enough for me. I could feel the momentum
driving us all toward an inevitable confrontation; I would not sit in
judgement of someone without learning more of the truth about him.
In different times I may have made conversation with the teacher in the
light of day. It would be easy, since he was in the temple environs
every day, attracting larger and larger crowds with his curious and
inflammatory doctrine. But because of his notoriety, it was necessary
for me to seek him out after hours, under the protection of darkness. So
I had sought an interview with the rabbi through one of his disciples,
one whose face was familiar around the temple: Judas bar Simon, from
Kerioth. For an agreeable price Judas had given me an hour and an
address.
After the venomous debate over him in the Council, I expected a
protective entourage to be in his company, but passing down a darkened
alleyway and entering a small courtyard, I found simply the man, sitting
quietly on a bench under a gnarled oak tree. I identified myself quickly
to him.
"Rabbi, thank you for seeing me."
"You are welcome, councilor," he smiled. "Please, sit down."
"I am Nicodemus."
"And I'm honored by a member of the Sanhedrin. But what brings you at
such a late hour?"
It would do no good to lie to him, and I didn't want to anyway.
"Discretion," I answered, trying not to look sheepish.
"Ah, yes. Discretion," he smiled knowingly.
"Please don't think ill of me. I have to be careful. I already have my
detractors; there are those who wouldn't be pleased with my speaking to
you."
"Then why have you come to speak with me? And in the middle of the
night?"
Where to begin? I had tried to set in some order the queries I would
pose to this learned, albeit dangerous man. Even though I had heard
little but vitriol against him, I felt no personal animosity against the
Nazarene. And there was nothing about his appearance or behavior to
change my mind. His demeanor was pleasant enough, at ease with himself
as well as with anyone around him.
"I've come with questions," I began. "My own questions. I can't trust
the information that falls on my ears at the temple. Too many around me
offer answers that have little to do with the truth. And I want to know
the truth--the truth about you."
"Are you sure? The truth can be, at times, disturbing."
"More disturbing than the Council?" I snorted sarcastically, but
immediately regretted the liberty. I couldn't afford to be so
familiar--at least until I knew more about this one so full of mystery.
"Tell me," he said, ignoring my caustic remark, "what do you think is
the truth about me."
"Well," I began, feeling like the prosecutor at a trial, "we know that
you've come as a teacher from God. I should say that some of us know;
there are others who say you've sprung from the bowels of hell. But
surely, with the miracles you've performed, you must be of God. I don't
believe--as others have said--that you're simply a crafty magician. No,
God is with you."
"I tell you the truth," he answered soberly, "unless one is born again,
he cannot even see the kingdom of God."
"Yes, they warned me you would speak in mysteries! All right. My first
question is this: How can a man be 'born' when he is already old? Is
this one of your mysteries? Have you devised a way for a man to re-enter
his mother's womb and be born for a second time?"
He answered matter-of-factly, as if describing something of no more
weight than the day's weather. "You are born of your mother once. But
unless you are born of water and the Spirit, you'll not enter the
kingdom of God."
I wanted to press my question with greater detail, but he held up his
hand to stop me.
"No, listen. You came seeking the truth, and the truth is: That which is
born of the flesh is flesh, but that which is born of the Spirit, is
Spirit."
Born of the Spirit. What did he mean by that? How was one 'born' of the
Spirit? But I was distracted by another word he used. "You said 'water.'
Now, we Jews have always had the baptism by water. Is this what you
refer to? Must one be a Jew first?"
"But we only baptize those new to the faith."
"Yes, you're right, of course. It's only for the Gentiles. But many have
associated you with the baptizer, John. Is this the water you speak of?"
"Those who are baptized by John, do so as a symbol of their repentance.
It's an act of submission to God. And with that repentance comes the
Spirit. Don't try to reason through it, Nicodemus. When the wind hits
your face and you hear it whistle by your ears, you know it is a real
thing, don't you? Yet, you have no idea of its origin--or its
destination. You only know that it is real. The Spirit is from God. You
cannot see it, or touch it, or know where it is going. But you can feel
it. It is real."
I had never before heard anyone speak like this. He spoke as if the
grand mysteries of the universe were something so common to him that he
carried them around in his purse. And from his purse he brought them
forth--not to dazzle and impress, but to comfort and explain. In
appearance he was just another man; in behavior, he was different; but
in the words that flowed out from his mind, he was a source of answers
for questions not yet asked.
"Rabbi, I mean no disrespect, but--how can this be? Your words leave me
breathless. You are either the wisest man who has ever lived, or, well,
uh, that is--"
"And you, the teacher of Israel, don't understand these things? You came
to me for truth."
"I came to you for answers."
"Do you wish only those answers that are pleasing to the ear? I tell you
what I know and have seen and you still don't believe me!"
"But I want to believe."
"Nicodemus," he said kindly, "I've spoken to you of earthly things and
you don't believe. How then can I speak to you of heavenly things?"
Oh, I was so desperate to hear the truth about heavenly things. But why
was I seeking it here, in a backwater hovel from an itinerant preacher?
Weren't such things to be discovered in God's temple? "From where do you
get your knowledge of heavenly things?"
The Nazarene rose and put all of his weight against the trunk of the oak
tree. I had the impression that he was choosing carefully the words to
his answer. Then he turned to look at me, and said, "No one has ever
gone into heaven except the one who came from heaven: the Son of Man."
Once again I was finding it difficult to breathe. "And you are--"
"Nicodemus, you know it already. That's why you came to me tonight." He
moved toward me, close enough to embrace, and spoke with his hands. "You
knew it up here--in your mind; you came tonight so that you might know
it here--in your heart."
The compounded logic inside my head roared back in defiance of what my
heart struggled to accept. He was right: I had come to him this night
because, intellectually, I believed what my colleagues in the Sanhedrin
were so eager to reject. To admit it to them would mean the end of me.
The cool logic that had always ruled my life argued continually against
this utterly illogical position. But still, I had to know more--I had to
know the truth. And again, I suppose he was right: The missing
component--the one final step that would move me from intellectual
agreement to faith--was the condition of my heart.
I was exhausted. I felt as if I had just run a marathon. "Do you realize
what you are saying?" I said stupidly.
"Yes, I know. Do you, Nicodemus?" He was close enough for me to see into
his eyes. In the dim light of the courtyard they seemed to radiate a
warmth that embraced a heart grown cold and cynical by the trappings of
religion. "Just as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so
too, the Son of Man must be lifted up--so that whoever believes in Him,
may have eternal life. God loved the world so much, that He gave that
world His one and only Son, that anyone who would believe in Him would
not perish, but have eternal life! Nicodemus," he whispered to me,
"listen to your heart."
The interview was over. As I made my way back to my house, I struggled
to understand the change that had come over me. But I could not. I could
not describe it. I knew only that I was now different from the man who
had walked this same street an hour before.
"For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world,
but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not
condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already
because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son.
This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved
darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone
who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for
fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth
comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he
has done has been done through God." John 3:17-21
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
You're a fool, Nicodemus!" Malchiah growled at me as we stepped into the
antechamber off the room where the Council had been arguing over the
fate of Jesus. "How much longer do you think you can keep this up?"
It was late on a Thursday night. We had been called for a mysterious
late-night meeting at the palace of Caiaphas. I attended, but with a
sickening bile rising from my belly. I was becoming tired--sick and
tired of the desperate machinations that the religious and political
powers were putting us all through in their attempt to rid themselves of
this inconvenient man whose gentle teaching was leaving them all so
miserable. And now, on this night, there was within the room an
atmosphere of finality--that this finally was the moment to act. As a
consequence, my position was now precarious. Soon I would have to
decide: either for or against.
One vote was safe--the other would change my life.
"Will you now give me away?" I asked my old friend.
He shook his head violently side-to-side, as if convincing himself to
believe his own words. "No. I'll not give you away. You're still my
friend. But I should. If you persist in this you'll bring us all down
with you."
"Why should you worry? You didn't vote with me."
"I'm implicated by your confidence in me!" He hissed, pulling me further
away from the door. "I take a chance by simply leaving the room with
you."
"Then why not vote with me? Why can't you see it, Malchiah?"
"And I would ask you the same, my misguided friend."
"You were with me that day He spoke--"
"There have been many days He has spoken. Too many."
"Yes, many. He's given us every opportunity to understand, and still
some refuse."
"There's no need to get personal!" Malchiah snapped.
"But that's precisely what Jesus has been telling us! Malchiah, are you
just like the rest? We keep going to him, we learned and wise men of the
Sanhedrin, trying to debate the man into submission. When will it end?"
My friend stalked about the room, trying to release the built-up
frustrations of the last few days. "This man is a disruption!"
"And just what is He disrupting?"
"Well," he sputtered, "our way of life. The way we do things here--our,
well, our tradition."
Here was my opening. "Yes--our tradition. And I thank God He is
disrupting our traditions."
"Don't press your luck, Nicodemus," he said, as much as a warning as to
put me in my place. I knew Malchiah was earnestly zealous for our
heritage. I couldn't fault him for that. But now, in the heat of the
exchanges that had been taking place within the Council, he was being
forced to choose sides. It was now clear that he had chosen the side
opposite mine. I had to find a way to win him back.
"It was quite some time ago," I began quietly. "A group of us had sought
out Jesus to once again argue trivialities. A report had come to the
council that the disciples of Jesus had been observed eating without
having washed their hands."
"Yes, I remember," Malchiah chimed in. "He refused the challenge, as I
recall." His face wore an unpleasant smugness I had never seen before.
"Jesus simply refused to join in our petty bickering--"
"Petty bickering?" Malchiah exploded. "It is the law!"
"Your memory fails you," I answered as evenly as I could, trying to
defuse his temper, "as does your scholarship. We didn't challenge him on
the law. We asked Jesus why his disciples transgress the tradition of
the elders."
He was innocent in his ignorance. "Yes?" Malchiah said, his arms
upraised to show that from his perspective there was no difference.
I shouldn't have been surprised, but the confirmation of my worst fears
cut deeply. "Well, I see that you are still one of them."
"One of them?" He practically screamed at me. "One of them?" He gestured
toward the closed door that led to the large room where the rest of the
Council still sat in debate. "Nicodemus, you are one of them."
I could no longer hide my melancholy. "Not any more. Not since that
day."
The man I still considered to be my friend grasped my shoulders. I could
feel his passion in the insistent strength of his hands. "Don't take
this any further. You are a respected councilor, a member of the
Sanhedrin. Don't jeopardize your standing for the ravings of a deranged
prophet--an accused blasphemer."
Malchiah was still my friend, but I could no longer be gracious against
his surrender to the political pressures that threatened Jesus. "I'm
told there is an animal down in Ethiopia that has a habit of hiding its
head in the sand when challenged by an adversary. When I heard Jesus
that day, I heard the truth--as if for the first time. Don't you feel
the hunger, Malchiah? Don't you hunger for the truth?"
"I know the truth," he said stiffly.
"Do you think Jesus serves a God other than ours?"
"Don't quiz me on the twisted contents of his mind!" He spat at me. "My
faith has been tested by time and was given by the very hand of God."
I couldn't let him go. "But it's those very commandments God handed down
to us that have become twisted," I pleaded with him. "We have designed
for ourselves such a maze of regulations that we've lost sight of who
God really is! All Jesus has done is cut through the confusion to show
us that our relationship with God must be personal. It cannot be founded
on regulations."
He wasn't going to give an inch. Malchiah's resolve was impenetrable.
"He called us hypocrites!"
"And he backed it up by quoting Isaiah," I reminded him. "'This people
honors me with their lips, but their heart is far away from me. In vain
do they worship me, teaching as doctrines the precepts of men.'
Tradition, Malchiah. Just empty, selfish tradition."
"Don't quote the Scriptures to me." His face glowered darkly, and I knew
I had now lost him.
"Why not?" I retorted. "You seem to have forgotten them!"
"All right!" He exploded. "Go follow your miniature God. I'll not stand
in your way--and I'll not expose you to the rest of the council." His
voice was icy, bitter. "But I'll not vote with you. And I'll not be your
friend."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Not long after, the vote came. Now it had been done--and now I found
myself, as expected, on the wrong side of the majority. It was as if a
great blade had come down from heaven and cleaved the group. On the one
side were most of the members of the Sanhedrin: religionists,
traditionalists--some good men and true who were convinced they were
serving the hand of God; others with darker motives, who felt threatened
by the new words and ideas of Jesus, who felt their power and influence
slipping further away with every utterance from His lips. And on the
other side, a small group of nervous souls who heard truth when Jesus
spoke, who felt the hand of God within Him.
Now an untraversable breach had opened up between us, dividing not only
judicial positions, but hearts and minds. A tremulous darkness hovered
over the proceeding. There were no shouts of victory, no sense of
satisfaction from a job well-done; only a foreboding that something
unsavory but necessary had been accomplished. In the minds of those in
the majority, something evil was about to be purged from our midst. They
had soiled their hands, but the community had been protected.
I can't say I was in my right mind. What I hoped to prove, I wasn't
sure, but out of desperation I asked for a private word with Caiaphas,
the high priest.
"As if I hadn't enough occupying my mind," he muttered as we entered his
small office.
"Lord Caiaphas--"
"And you really think you can successfully plead this man's case where
he himself failed so miserably?"
"I can't improve upon His eloquence."
"Eloquence?" He laughed out loud. "The man is a joke. A buffoon."
"You don't believe that."
"How dare you!" He said, enraged by my impertinence.
"You don't put to death buffoons."
Caiaphas moved away from me, as if with all his power he was still
afraid of me, afraid of my grim determination. Or was it just surprise?
Was he surprised that anyone would take such an unpopular stand,
surprised that even after the vote, someone would be willing to risk it
all for the condemned?
"No one takes this sad person seriously," he said uneasily and dropped
wearily into a chair.
I could see it now. It was clear that Caiaphas--the great and powerful
ruler who held sway over every judicial, political, and religious
segment of Israel--was afraid. But not of me; Caiaphas was terrified of
Jesus.
"You're afraid of Him," I said out loud, and he stiffened with
indignation. "You're afraid of Him, Caiaphas. He's not a buffoon, but a
threat--a threat to your power."
"How dare you abuse this office so!"
I felt a reassuring calm pass through me--the peaceful calm, I suppose,
of someone who has nothing more to lose. "It no longer matters. I
renounce my standing as a member of the Council."
"You what?"
I was no longer afraid to look him in the eye. "I now claim as my master
this one you have just consigned to death."
His face reddened, and Caiaphas pushed himself up from his chair, as if
collecting his strength to do me physical violence. "You are not only
insulting, but making a very dangerous--and costly--mistake."
After all of it, I was still more saddened than angry by his response.
"I was hoping that you might see--"
"Why are you doing this to me?"
"I'm not doing it to you--or anyone else, for that matter. I'm doing it
for me."
Caiaphas paced about the room, letting his anger dissipate before
addressing me. And though when he finally did, the brittle anger was
gone, it had been replaced by a dark menace that was even more
terrifying.
"Nicodemus," he began quietly, almost purring. "I care nothing for you
or your precious new faith. If you choose to believe the blasphemous
rants of this man, then proceed--at your own risk. And if there were no
other considerations, I would run you out of town myself, gladly." His
eyes shifted nervously, and the politician emerged. "But there are
considerations. The Council is much bigger than the collection of its
members. And the Council is much more important than the soiled
reputation of one of its members." No matter how hard he tried to
contain it, his fierce anger had reawakened. "I will not have this
august body compromised by your preposterous loyalties. I would gladly
bring upon you disgrace of the most public kind," he spat venomously,
"but I will not. I will not subject our governing Council to such
infamy. You represent all that is the worst of your generation! You care
nothing for our rich heritage. You so easily discard centuries of
tradition for something still in its infancy! You and your kind are
never satisfied. And your sedition infects us like a cancer. I detest
you. And I detest this Jesus and what he has done to us."
A part of me was still terrified by Caiaphas and his power. But now the
greater part was even more convinced than before that what I was doing
was right--not only right for me, but right for everyone.
"You've done it to yourself, Caiaphas," I said, surprised by my calm.
"You won't allow yourself to see the truth in what Jesus says. He is the
Christ--and you resent the fact that he is without your permission."
"You will regret this, Nicodemus," he retorted, his face twisting into
an ugly mask. "You've been blinded."
"Yes. I guess I have. Blinded by His light."
"Get out of here!" He exploded.
I gladly made for the door, but then stopped. "You think you're still in
charge. You think all this is your doing. For once God really is in
control. You've just done exactly what He intended. You have just
fulfilled the destiny of His Son--and established the end of your
meaningless traditions." And as I left the chambers and the palace, my
thoughts slipped back to the teachings of the prophets so long before.
Seven hundred years ago Isaiah had warned us of the change coming. He
warned that the house of Israel would stumble over the Son of Man. And
now, when faced with its reality, the fulfillment of the prophecy--our
long-awaited Messiah--was so complete we were blind to it. Most of us
were so locked into our mindless traditions we feared to let go. But
some--little people, here and there--dared to believe, some dared to
rejoice in His light.
The people walking in darkness
have seen a great light;
on those living in the land of the shadow of death
a light has dawned.
Of the increase of his government and peace
there will be no end.
He will reign on David's throne
and over his kingdom,
establishing and upholding it
with justice and righteousness
from that time on and forever.
The zeal of the Lord Almighty
will accomplish this. Isaiah 9:2,7
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I don't know why I stayed in the city instead of following the
procession that carried Jesus out to Golgotha, the place of execution.
On the face of it, I certainly had no interest in being a spectator at
one more Roman crucifixion. It was an ugly way to die--that was the
point of it, you see. By attending I felt that I was playing into the
hands of our oppressors, who wished us all to observe and be intimidated
by this singular demonstration of their might.
Then too, I realized that in this one instance, the Roman authorities
were themselves only pawns in this sick drama of death. They cared
nothing about Jesus; they had few opinions of Him either way. What did
they care that there was one more prophet in a land of prophets, and
what did they care that a man claimed to be God? But they had been
enlisted, because in their empire only they could inflict the death
penalty.
No, I knew that it was that most pious and dignified body of which I was
a part that wished Jesus dead. In a land of religion it was the
religious leaders who ruled, and it was religion that felt threatened by
the teachings of Christ. Centuries of tradition, infrastructure, habits,
and corruption were being threatened by one who taught that God dwelt as
much in the heart as in a temple of stone. And if Messiah had truly
come, what use remained, then, for priests and scholars? No, Jesus had
to go, and His blood was on their hands.
I did feel an obligation to my Lord, as if it were my duty to watch Him
die. But as the city emptied to witness the crucifixion of Jesus and the
criminals, my feet took me, instead, to the house of God. Jesus had
given me a new relationship with Jehovah--a relationship so new and
different that I was still trying to sort it out--and it was to the
Father I was compelled to go. It was during one of his earlier
discourses that Jesus had introduced this new relationship. We had
gathered around Him, on the side of a hill, and as He taught us how we
should live, He gave us clues as to how we should now think of God.
"So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as
the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be
honored by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their
reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left
hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be
in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will
reward you.
"And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to
pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen
by men. I tell you the truth, they have received their reward in
full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray
to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is
done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on
babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of
their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what
you need before you ask him.
"This, then, is how you should pray: 'Our Father in heaven, hallowed
be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is
in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. Forgive us our debts, as
we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.'
"For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly
Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their
sins, your Father will not forgive your sins." Matthew 6:2-15
To someone like myself, raised on temple worship, where access to the
holy place was strictly limited to the priesthood, and where only the
high priest could enter into the presence of God--and then only once per
year--this was a shocking concept. The idea of God as a Father with whom
we could enjoy a more intimate relationship was hard to accept. One day
Jesus was teaching His disciples within earshot of several members of
the Sanhedrin, and He went even further in describing God the Father to
us.
Jesus told a parable of a profligate young man who took his inheritance
and squandered it on a fast and immoral life. Eventually the young man,
having lost everything and now reduced to abject poverty, returned to
his father in humility, wishing only to be thought of as another of his
servants. But in describing the reaction of the father to this prodigal
son, Jesus drew for us a picture of how our heavenly Father lovingly
responds to us.
"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and
against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.' But the
father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it
on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. Bring the
fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. For
this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is
found.' So they began to celebrate.
"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the
house, he heard music and dancing. So he called one of the servants
and asked him what was going on. 'Your brother has come,' he
replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he
has him back safe and sound.'
"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father
went out and pleaded with him. But he answered his father, 'Look!
All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your
orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate
with my friends. But when this son of yours who has squandered your
property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for
him!'
"'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything
I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this
brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is
found.'" Luke 15:21-32
Here was a picture of a God who no longer insisted on an intermediary.
Here was a Father who embraced the individual--even the sinner--without
the need of a priest or blood sacrifice. This new teaching spread like
wildfire, drawing people from all walks of life to hear Jesus.
It also ensured His doom.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Around midday the sky suddenly darkened into an angry, churning heap of
blackened clouds, like the approach of a terrible thunderstorm. Yet I
had never seen a storm such as this--so menacing and mean. The streets
of Jerusalem darkened as if a woolen blanket had just been wrapped
around the sun. There seemed to be no natural explanation for the
phenomenon, and though I had no other evidence, something deep in my
belly told me that the cause would be traced to the bloody figure of
Jesus now hanging on a cross.
As I was close to the temple complex, I continued on, ascending the
grand but familiar stairway that rose from the city to the southwest
gate in the wall. There were but a few stragglers in the broad Court of
the Gentiles--the only area of the complex open to non-Jews. For the
most part, everything was deserted, and I met no one else as I passed
through the columns of the perimeter, around to Solomon's Porch, where
Jesus so often spoke to the crowds of people that flocked to hear his
marvelous words.
It seemed almost impossible, but everything had grown darker still, as
black as midnight. A cold wind blew out of the north, whistling through
the columns that supported the long roof over my head. With nowhere else
to go, I huddled where I was, my back against the thick wall that
surrounded the vast courtyard. Directly across from me were the steps
that led up to the impressive bronze doors that we referred to as the
Beautiful Gate. These doors gave entrance to the temple itself.
I couldn't resolve the two. Here before me was the sublime home of my
faith, the root of my heritage. Here Israel met with her God. Here--and
only here--we sacrificed and paid homage to Him. All of this was
conducted according to His precise instruction; it was He who created
the method and design of acceptable worship. It was His idea! Yet now
God's Son had come and made Himself a sacrifice. He had told me Himself,
at our first meeting.
"Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the desert, so the Son of Man
must be lifted up, that everyone who believes in him may have
eternal life." John 3:14-15
He was now to be the substitutionary sacrifice. He was the spotless
lamb. And I didn't pretend to understand it all. I wasn't stupid: I
could understand the words, even the concepts. But it was all still too
overwhelming to digest in such a short period of time.
There was still a deep charcoal blackness enveloping everything. The
wind had picked up, and lightning was beginning to illuminate the sky in
the west. Time was swimming past me with blinding speed. I must have sat
there, huddled against the stone, for several hours. At last I pushed
myself upright and made for the tall bronze doors before me. In the dim
light they seemed even more imposing than in their warm glow of morning
sunlight. Balanced exquisitely on its pins, one door easily swung open
at my touch, and I entered the open Court of Women. Like the Gentile
Court outside, it too was deserted. The dark sky pressed down into the
space, a heavy weight come down from heaven. God wanted our attention
and, for once, He had it. His Son was about to die. Things were about to
change.
A white arc of lightning crashed nearby, illuminating the beautiful
cream-colored stone facade of the Holy Place. My heart beat wildly as I
ascended the curved steps that rose toward the Court of Israel, where
the men of Israel came to worship. I passed through the doorway and
stopped. Only once each year, during the Feast of Tabernacles, were men
permitted past this point. Before me stood the great stone altar, the
place where so much blood had been shed for the remission of sins--next
to it, the bronze laver containing the water for washing. Everything
before me seemed so cold and institutional in the fierce darkness.
A constant angry rumble of thunder filled the air around me, as if the
Lord God was pounding His fists upon the earth, pounding upon the place
where He had invested so much of His mercy, His fierce wrath, His grace.
What was He saying? Was it more anger--or just more screaming for us to
finally get it. We never seemed to. No matter what the Lord tried, man
would always adulterate His methods with himself. Man would always spoil
holiness, ruining what came down pure from heaven.
I don't know what pushed me into the Court of the Priests. It may have
been simple curiosity, but I think it was really a desire, at this
pivotal moment, to be in attendance at the navel of our faith. Jesus had
declared that everything in this place would, somehow, be changed. This
was the place where God came down to meet with man. Here is where He
would be manifested in this hour.
Begging His forgiveness, but half expecting His anger to descend upon
me, I hesitantly stepped into the Court and made my way around the huge,
unhewn altar. To my left was the laver, pitched above me like a great
bowl, cold and hard in the explosive darkness. Then, my heart in my
throat, I fearfully ascended the steps that led into the Holy Place. At
the top, my legs shaking, I pushed aside the veil at the entrance, but
halted, not daring to proceed further. Before me lay the
sanctuary--where only the priests could go--containing the golden
lampstands, the table for the showbread, the incense altar, and all the
paraphernalia of worship and sacrifice. Here were all the pieces the
Lord had had made as far back as Moses, and the first tabernacle.
The terrible, crescendoing storm filled me with an overwhelming urge to
run into the sanctuary for shelter--but nothing could drive me into that
Holy Place reserved for the Levite priesthood. I could not. But each
flash of lightning illuminated its interior, back into its dark recesses
where the massive veil divided the Holy from the Most Holy. The veil was
patterned after the original the Lord dictated for Moses to have made
for the original tabernacle.
"Make a curtain of blue, purple and scarlet yarn and finely twisted
linen, with cherubim worked into it by a skilled craftsman. Hang it
with gold hooks on four posts of acacia wood overlaid with gold and
standing on four silver bases. Hang the curtain from the clasps and
place the ark of the Testimony behind the curtain. The curtain will
separate the Holy Place from the Most Holy Place. Put the atonement
cover on the ark of the Testimony in the Most Holy Place."
Exodus 26:31-34
No one but the high priest could pass beyond that veil--and then only
once a year, on the Day of Atonement, when he made sacrifice for the
sins of all Israel. On this day we were reminded that our monthly,
weekly, even daily sacrifices were insufficient to atone for all of our
sins. Once a year the high priest would enter the Most Holy Place and
sprinkle blood upon the mercy seat to atone for the sins of the priests,
and the sins of the nation as a whole.
To the people of Israel, this veil represented the last barrier between
them and the Lord. The mercy seat represented His presence; the veil
represented our inability to step into His presence.
I heard the rumbling begin in the distance, beyond the hills, beyond the
Mount of Olives. It gathered and swirled, circling the city as its
epicenter. It passed beneath my feet, then came around again, like a
subterranean whirlpool circling a drain. The heavens erupted, lightning
coursed across the blackened sky, and rain descended in a hard sheet. I
pressed my body against the outside wall of the sanctuary, seeking some
shelter without actually going inside. It seemed as if the world was
coming to an end.
The massive stone blocks that marked the entrance were alive with the
groanings that rocked the whole city. Rain was spilling down from the
parapet that crowned the temple, drenching me. So I edged just around
the corner, to gain shelter from the thick wall without actually
stepping inside the Holy Place.
Just then the sky exploded in a terrifying symphony of thunder and
lightning. The lightning bolts came so fast that their illumination was
constant. Everything around me was bathed in a hard, silvery light sent
from another world. I turned my head to peer into the Holy place, and
everything inside was lit as if by a thousand lamps. The heavy veil at
the far end of the room was shaking side to side from the tremulous
vibrations passing through the structure.
The vibrations increased. The stone beneath my feet trembled like
quicksand, as if someone had taken hold of the building and was angrily
shaking it. The veil began to dance and quiver with a life of its own.
The air was filled with a horrible shrieking, and as I watched in
stunned silence, the veil began tearing in two. Beginning at the top,
the heavy fabric that was humanly impossible to tear, began separating
as if a great and mighty hand had taken hold of the top hem. I couldn't
believe my eyes, but the they weren't lying to me. The huge veil that
had for so long hid from sight the Holy of Holies was being ripped in
two. The tearing continued, steadily, until the bottom hem was reached,
and the last thread holding together the two halves was snapped.
And there it was! With the two pieces of the torn veil flapping in the
wind, the Most Holy Place, the place where God came down to meet with
man; where God came down once a year to accept the blood sacrifice of
atonement for all the people--there it was. Open for all!
The law is only a shadow of the good things that are coming--not the
realities themselves. For this reason it can never, by the same
sacrifices repeated endlessly year after year, make perfect those
who draw near to worship.
...and by that will, we have been made holy through the sacrifice of
the body of Jesus Christ once for all. Hebrews 10:1,10
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Issue #117
August 2000
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